Life

Yo are my everything, I haven’t seen you in awhile and tomorrow I get to see you again. I am so excited I can’t wait, it feels like my days are endless without seeing you. It really sucks but I’ll just have to wait till tomorrow till I see you :)

Everyones lives have ups and downs, but lately everything in mine seems to be downs. i cant seem to do anything right, all i want to do is please you and make you happy because that’s what you do to me but all i do is fail you. So i’m trying to understand this thing called life because so far i havent and all i’ve done has been mistakes. I have seen you almost everyday this summer and it was the best thing i’ve ever experienced in my life, even though you thought i was annoying most of the time i still enjoyed it because i love you so much. You are my soul mate but there is nothing i can to make you stay with me, i am always very worried about you and it scares me to think about myself without you, it would fucking suck. So the next time ill get to be happy is friday night after work because i have to go back to my shitty dead end job at night and i have school all day. I just need to set my body to accept the fact that im not gonna always be able to see you all the time now. But i cant stop thinking about you, your the reason i get up in the morning and look forward to the day and what happens in it. But though this school year with me working a lot and all the other shit, i don’t know when i’m gonna see you but i hope that i can still see you a lot. I feel so alone in this house, i’m always here when no one else is, then when i’m not here i jut get yelled at because i’m not here! I know i’m only 18 but life seems to be shitty, ive been through way to much shit and its all because stupid decisions that i made. I just want to have a normal life with you and not have to have all of this bullshit in the background.